I know life is not fair. I tell my kids that because if it was Barry would be here with us. It has been 22 months I still feel pain and cry. I miss him so much. It was a great father and husband. I know he didnt want to leave us either. When he was sick and in the hospital we thought he would get better. He did say I am not afaird to die because I will go to heaven but I am afraid to leave you and the kids. I guess that is way I have never been mad at him for leaving because I know he wanted to gey better and stay with us. I have a 16 and 6 year old boys. It is so hard to go to that first day of school and he not be there. He was always there before at school things , he coached and was a boy scout leader. He has been hard for both children. I will have to say people have been so supported. The kids in my youngest sons class know his father passed away because he will tell people. He wanted a shirt that we saw that said My Dad is Awesome. He wears it and ells people he does have an awesome Dad it is just his dad is in heaven. I just try and go on for my kids. I dont want them to grow up and say the day my Dad passed away my mom died also. I will try and do the things Barry and I did with the kids and just remember the great memories we have together. Take care and ask for strength eveyday.
You sound like your trying so hard to stay strong. I look at my daughter17 and my son4 who are still home with me for strength. Instead, it only brings tears. My little baby boy, he looks and walks just like his dad. I think of his first day of school and all the days after when he will see his friends with their fathers. There are so many evil people in this world God could have taken. Why ours? I read of all the wonderful husbands lost on this site and that's the question there is no answer for. The statements made to me of how he's in a better place with no pain doesn't bring much comfort to me. He loved his family and was so happy right here with us. Life is so unfair -you are so right-
You all make me feel lucky.My children are grown and were devasted.I can't imagine their suffering.I feel your pain.Know you're in my thoughts and prayers.Kathy
I know what you mean my son who was 14 at the time came home from school and thought his dad was a sleep. He called to tell me he was home and I ask where is your dad and he said a sleep on the bed. I knew something was not right because Barry had not been sleeping much and none during the day. I told him to try and wake him up and he could not. I told him to hang up and call 911. I called a neighbor and when i got home my son was running out of the house down the street . I knew in my heart on the way home he was gone. I was screaming in the car all the way home. My husband had eat breakfast and was fine when I left to take my 4 year old to my mom because Barry had a doctors appointment later in the day. We have a lot of what ifs. Just dont understand it all.