Charlotte I am so sorry for your double loss. My husband left on December 23, 2009 and it is still so hard and for you to lose your husband and mom in one week. Unlike you I have been feeling my pain and my husband's pain. He didn't expect to die that day. He had complete heart function test the same morning and everything was good. He expected to live at least till our 15 year old was grown up and instead my 15 yr old was the one who found him first, rode with him alone in the ambulance and was in the hospital. He blames himself and I have to assure him that there was nothing he could have done. I don't think this pain that I feel is all just mine, some of it is definitely from him. So I guess both of us have to come terms with it.