Cindy, I'm so glad that Saturday went well for you. I'm also glad to know you are ok, I was worried when I couldn't reach you. You should be thankful that your friend got you out of town on that day. It does help to have others to talk to that really understand what we are going through. I went to my first grief support group tonite, expecting the worst and I was very comfortable, for the first time in almost a year. It was a small group (5 of us) in a very comfortable living room setting and just talked. These people have been through it, and are still going through it, and gave me some good advice. Of course, this is only the beginning, I've got alot more to go through and alot more help to get. I'm in the process of interviewing some therapists because I know I need that also to deal with my clinical depression. I know this will never go away, but hopefully Brad will help me survive as he always did when we were together. I will never feel normal again, I know and the hardest part will be trying to go from "we" to "I". That day may never come as I still feel married and most likely always will. When I see Brad again someday we will then be together forever and never have to say good bye again. Until then, I know I have to make him proud of me and try to get through this, I know he is helping me, watching over me as all of our loved ones are. Hope we get to talk sometime soon, but the main thing is now I know you made it through Saturday ok...baby steps & lots of hugs!
i am glad you enjoyed your grieve group.i have been going to one off and on but am not getting as much out of it as i would like. i am going to look for other avenues of help. i am so desperately depressed that i might need to check into a grief counselor. i dont really know what i need, i am just so terrible lonely. i have even thought about looking into getting a second job, so i wouldnt have so much free time on my hands. of course i could use the money also. i wish i had some answers but noone seems to be able to give me any advice. i dont have alot of friends, and that makes it hard, even my family is very small. i need to get out and try to meet people i guess but dont even know how to go about doing that. i guess it was really stupid of me to have allowed myself to become so codependent on my husband but i really thought we would grow old together. can anyone relate to that????