Judy, My sincere sympathy to you. I lost my husband 9 months ago tomorrow (8/9). I had never in my life lived alone. Our youngest daughter is a senior at a University in Pennsylvania and is at school most of the time. She is a sweetheart and comes home most weekends so that I am not alone all the time. We were married when I was 18. We would have celebrated our 46th wedding anniversary on October 15 but he was completely sedated and had no idea that there was a world around him. My heart is broken. I still cry and take meds to get through the night. I went so many nights without sleeping that I needed rest. I wish I could tell you that it would get easier but it hasn't gotten any easier for me. Not yet anyway! Prayer is about the best thing for you to get you through this. You will find many wonderful people on this site also that will help you tremendously. We are all suffering together. God Bless You and I will remember you in my prayers.