Well, it's been 20 months today being the 22nd. It seems like every day is the same. I still can't wrap my head around the fact that I'm living here in this world and he's not. I believe that there is a tiny part of my brain that never will accept it. I'm sorry to say I really dislike life right now and I'm not looking forward to future days either. Death is so final. We are so mortal. This is the greatest test of my Faith. I believe love for God comes first and then love of family. But it was so much easier to say that before he died. If it was up to me Danny would have lived well beyond the age of 61. I suppose it really was His will, not mine. Who am I to say when we must depart from this world. I'm just waiting for God to give me direction. I just don't have the motivation to make any more decisions. I'm just leaving my life up to God.
God bless to all,

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Hi Jane,

You have gone through so much sorrow.  I am deeply sorry for your losses.  I too vacillate between anger and praying to Him for strength to make it through another day.  I know there is a reason for everything, but of course we can't fathom the mind of God.  I haven't been posting much any more, but I agree that since after 1/22/10 when Danny passed I have shared much here and felt relief, support, understanding and validation from others here at Legacy.  You are in my prayers.  Please take care.

God bless,


Dear Charles W.

When I saw your reply I started to read, and I don't know how, but I knew you were going to say that about your wife's name.  I'm so sorry for your loss.  Take care.

God bless,



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