I lost my husband of 21 years on 8/8/10, he went to bed and the next morning i went to wake him up at 8:30 (he never slept past 6 or 7) and he was dead. It has been very very hard. He had 2 open heart surgeries one in 3/07 and 8/07, then became insulin dept type 2 in 9/08 and in 9/09 stage 3b lung cancer. For the past three years my life was entwined with is hospital, doctors,chemo,visiting nurses and now it is empty. I loved him more than anything we worked together I am a property manager and he was the maintenance supervisor. I thought I had it under control but for the past week I cannot stop crying where I am getting sick. I am so lonely. I have a son but I do not want to be around people and make them miserable. My son is having a hard time also but he has a girlfriend and his son who is 13. I am busy working everyday, church, friends, etc. but there are more lonely days than filled days. How do you cope and stop being sad and crying yourself to sleep.