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Comment by Sara Murphy on March 13, 2020 at 10:03pm

Hi All....I want to check in and make sure you're all safe and healthy.  Not sure about your areas but Mass is pretty much shutting everything down.  I imagine it's the same across the country. 

Comment by Sara Murphy on March 10, 2020 at 11:24am
The weather's been nice here in Mass as well. 50's and 60's this week which is unusual. I myself don't enjoy doing yardwork but I do like to be outside and have been able to begin walking at lunch and on weekends.
Deb....enjoy your scrapbook convention and time with your sister
Comment by Mary. Jane on March 5, 2020 at 1:01pm

That sounds like wonderful fun! Yes, surprisingly, I enjoy working in the yard! I van’t Do the major stuff, but I have been weeding, watering, I find satisfaction in weeding. Sound weird, but it is instant gratification..when u pull the weed, and it comes right out ..and the yard looks a bit better! I am on my way to do just that! (I have to do a bit at a time, so I don.t mess up my back..but the “turtle” won the race! Lol)

Comment by deborah peck on March 5, 2020 at 12:11pm

the weather here has been great for the past week, temps in the 50s and 60s, makes me want to work in the yard if it wasn't a mudhole right now and the fact I know we aren't done with winter. I am so an outside person, my mood improves and the laziness disappears when I can be outside without freezing, Im leaving in a week for a scrapbooking convention with my sis, we go for 5 days every year and have such a good time just being with each other so I cant wait

Comment by deborah peck on March 5, 2020 at 12:06pm

so happy to hear you are feeling better Mary Jane, sometimes it seems we pass a turning point and rechannel the anger and hurt prayers you keep moving forward

Comment by Mary. Jane on March 2, 2020 at 11:13pm

Thank you Sara. Surprizingly, I am ALOT better now. Almost like my anger was a turning point somehow. I am really stunned at who I have been this week..I didn,t sit on my a$$ buying stuff on Amazon..but got up, and DID stuff! Gardened, cleaned the house, I took an interest in my life!

Yes, the IV thing was concerning..but, and I apologize if this comes off careless, but to hospice, it really didn,t matter if I did it correctly or not,  as he was going to die anyway. It was just a matter of time

That was kind of a shock to me, when it dawned on me..it was just before my angry post. He was just one more victim of cancer, and being he was in his 70’s...

i am sure Ken was given more consideration, as he was much younger and stronger. I am sorry you had to go through that. 

On a GOOD note...for some unknown reason, I have dreamt about Bob the last 2 days in a row, during my afternoon nap! I was fuzzy when I woke up today, and it was a few minutes B4 I realized he was in my dream, and we had been interacting! Most times, he is just THERE, but we don,t talk. But this time, we were working together on making a gift for Melinda..don’t remember much of it..but months and months of NOTHING, now 2 days in a row! 

Comment by Sara Murphy on March 2, 2020 at 11:35am
Mary Jane...I'm reading the posts from the past week. I'm sorry for all the anger that's presenting now but am glad you came here to scream. It helps to let it out especially to people who understand. You mentioned the few minutes the nurses spent teaching you about the feeding tube and it reminded me of the whole 5 minute lesson I got on how to give Ken IV antibiotics from home. I'm sure in nursing school they spend more than 5 minutes learning about how to properly administer IV meds and make sure there are no air bubbles but we family members I guess can learn in a fraction of the time. Those are the kinds of things I get angry about. Not angry at Ken or God but at the medical community as a whole.
I hope this week is a better week for you.
Comment by Marsha H on February 25, 2020 at 3:25am

Deborah P ... I am so sorry you had to go through such a terrible time with your first husband and especially because he was so young.  You're words were inspiring regarding anger eating one up and it changes nothing.  Now you have had to face losing Greg and there some things you said that I did with Ernie such as laying with him at the hospital. 

I have heard often that loved ones do pass when one or more people leave the room as did my own mother, relatives and then Ernie.  I remember a week before he died he said he saw a man at the end of his bed with a goatee and Ernie smiled and I'm sure it was his brother who passed away when he was only 25.  I think for me at least the best gift I could ever give Ernie was to tell him I would OK and that it was OK to go.  He sighed when I said that.  It was so difficult for me, but I just couldn't be selfish and let him go in peace. 

The story of you mother was something that assured me that yes, there is someone waiting for them to 'take them home.'

Thank you my friend for being so candid with us.

Love you

Marsha

Comment by Mary. Jane on February 24, 2020 at 6:36pm

Thank you, Marsha and Deborah.

Comment by deborah peck on February 24, 2020 at 8:01am

Mary Jane, I have been reading all the post from everyone this morning and I feel so much pain in everyones words. Anger is a hard thing, I had so muchof it after my 1st husband passed away at 36, way to young and U was only 31 with 3 little girls. The one thing I learned was the what ifs and anger eats at you until you come to realize it changes nothing. I would not let myself go there after Greg passed, there was very little anger except at im for not listening to the doctors when his stroke could of been prevented if he would of taken his blood thinners, but I am quite sure he was mad at himself to. My sister too had to leave her home within a month after her husband passed as he left her with no money and terrible debt that he hadn't tole her about and she does not feel him around her either, even though I tell her he is there but I truly think the anger and pain prevents them from coming to us. Greg was only home for 1 day on hospice before he passed, I was blessed to be laying beside him with my arms around him with all my family and his best friend in the room , they all snuck in while I was snuggling with him and I didn't know they were there until his breathing changed and I opened my eyes to look at him, I wanted to plead with him to stay but instead told him I would be okay.  I think I heard somewhere that sometimes our loved ones wait for us to leave the room before they pass, maybe they don't want to bring us more pain? My mom passed at home on hospice and waited until everyone was out of the room but me and my aunt to pass and when she did she was staring off to the wall and reached her hand out to someone she was seeing, we just froze as we realized what was happening.  Mary Jane one day you will be at peace with the anger and realize it was his time and nothing you had done could've changed anything, love you and prayers to you and all

 

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