Yes i know losing someone to alcoholism because recently my girlfriend passed away three months today, so i totally understand your pain. It is hard except that your loved one is not here with you and it is also horrible to face each day without her/him.
I have never ever been suffered before the way i am suffering right now without her. Pain never go away no matter what you do. I have no idea why they chose their life to be alcoholic and give up beautiful life at early age.Yes they are resting in peace another world and watching us how we are suffering without them. I am not selfish but i do not want her to leave me like this way. Nor i do not want any one go like this way.
Hope you are doing well. Peace be with you always.