Why is it when you lose your Mom it seems wherever you go you see elderly women who remind you of your Mother? Or at least that is how it feels to me. I’ve been trying to get some Christmas shopping done which I sure don’t feel like doing but is expected of me. When I’m in a store it seems like all I see are elderly Mother’s either in wheelchairs or walking with their grown sons or daughters shopping which of course everyone is doing this time of year. I always took my Mom shopping at Christmas which always seemed to be the whole month of December for some reason. She usually wanted to go more than me and I sometimes talked her out of a trip because of the crowds or I was short on time. She loved this time of year and the shopping trips we did make together. For some reason every store I end up in now seems like there are daughters pushing their Mothers in a wheelchair. Last year was the first year Mom used a little portable scooter I bought her or I pushed her in her wheelchair to shop as she had a hard time walking the last year she was alive. How did I not notice any of this before Mom died? I don’t really remember seeing elderly women shopping with their grown sons or daughters. I was at the local Mall yesterday and while looking in the clothing department of one of the stores, I overheard a conversation of an older Mom in a wheelchair whose daughter was pushing her. The Mother picked up a sweater off of a table and was holding it up admiring it when the daughter said “Mom that color is hideous.” The Mom laughed and said “I love this color and I just decided to get it for myself.” They argued back and forth for a few minutes with the Mom winning the argument. It made me laugh and cry at the same time as I recalled similar conversations with my Mom. I couldn’t help listening to them and silently laughed to myself. By the time I made it to my car to leave I sat in the parking lot and cried my heart out wishing that had been my Mom & I. I wish I could go back in time and enjoy these moments once again with my Mom. Has it always been like this and I just never noticed before? Moms & Daughters and their shopping trips? I feel so sad I never was aware so I could have savored it more at the time and I so regret when I told her I was too busy or didn’t have time for another trip to the Mall. I wish I had known it would all be gone one day and I would have made more memories. It is so hard to watch but at the same time so comforting somehow. I either leave the stores laughing or crying and I must say the emotions are overwhelming. Boy do I ever miss my Mom. These holidays are so hard to get through the first time your Mother isn’t there. Will it be easier next year? I hope so but I really doubt it will ever be better! I miss you so much Mom!!!! Does anyone else feel like this?