Dear Kristi,

  I lost my Mother  May 08,2010, I try to stay at a peacefull place knowing she and daddy are together.  My brother and I have cleaned out her home and rented it.  Everything has gone so fast since she passed.  I really don't know where I am getting the strength, before she passed she said she was going Home.  I asked how will I know your in Heaven?  she replied, I will have my hands on your shoulders for the rest of your life, from Heaven.  At 82 her mind was that of a 28yr old, and I find comfort that she was able to tell us what she wanted. I also find that is the hardest part.

I find myself lonely even if I'm not alone! 

  Set apart from everyone else,  I feel as though she is with me, and at times I can smell her.

My mother lost her parents when she was 23 & 25,  she lived 60 yrs without them. How did she cope?  I know God always got her through,  and I know he is with me.

I still feel the emptyness and not being able to get my life back on track, as she would want.

I were a smile everyday for her,because she loved me!

Thanks, Cindy