Hi Cecillia, I lost my dad on Nov 3, 2011 to advanced prostate cancer that turned into flesh eating. I t is going to be very tough. I am coming up on almost a year and have spent many nights crying when everyone is asleep. My thing that has helped me is grief books and of course the support groups. My mother and sister kept me from my dad while he was sick so i got the bombed dropped on me Halloween night. I am not looking forward to halloween and hate being in the stores. You need to communicate and cry their is no way around it, you must go through it. I am a spiritual person so i talk to my dad everynight sense he was cremated and taken home and i was diswoned with nothing of his but my tattoos. It is very hard and i am going to be honest, it is going to be hard for awhile, but i am here to talk to you you can friend me if you want
I am very sorry for your loss. Losing a loved one to death is never easy to accept. As you've heard from everyone, what you are experiencing is normal and there are many phases of the grieving process.
I'd like to share some comforting words found at Revelation 21:4, "And he will wipe out every tear from their eyes and death will be no more, neither will mourning, nor outcry, nor pain be anymore. The former things have passed away." God promises that he will eliminate our enemy death forever and we will not have to experience the pain of losing a loved one ever again. However, he also promises we will see our loved ones again at John 5:28,29,"Do not marvel at this because the hour is coming in which all those in the memorial tombs will hear his voice and come out." You will have the opportunity of being reunited with your father.
In the meantime look to God for comfort for he knows the pain we experience and will help us cope. "Throw your burden upon Jehovah himself, and he himself will sustain you." - Psalms 55:22
I hope these words can be of comfort and hope.
My deepest sympathy,