my name is sarah and i'm 27. my mom committed suicide when i was 24. she told me on my b day that she was gonna let a train run her over. i didn't believe her and told her not to talk like that and she said that she had it all planned out. a month latter on fathers day she let a train run her over!i hate her for what she did and at the same time i misses her so much. that messes with my head and i get so angry. i feel like ill never be able to forgive her. i want to stop feeling so stuck with grief and would really like some guidance.