Hi, I am so sorry for your loss. I to have lost one of the most important persons in my life to suicide. It has been years now but I still at times, frequently feel guilty. I should have listened more closely etc. But, then I need to remind myself that had I known, I know I would have interveined. I remind myself everyday of the wonderful and fun times we had that will never be forgotten. I also have thought that if I would have listened closer and been there more, maybe he would still be here. I will never know that. I cannot change what has happened. I can hopefully remind others of how wonderful he was. My thoughts are with you. Can you think of all the times you were there for him? I try and remind myself of this also. Keep in touch .