Although it has been 17 days since we buried my fiancee Jerry. I still find myself in denial. And then in these moments where I just want him to still be here. And like I said before, that I know that he would want me to live my life to the fullest. There are just days when I just want to go with him and be with him. I feel like I don't want to live life without him. I find myself okay at times, and so depressed at other times. It happens from one moment to the next. I find myself talking to him, telling him how much I love him, and how much I miss him and that I pray that he is finally resting in peace, yet at the same time I want to feel his presence near because I don't ever want him to leave me. Am I going crazy, or are these feelings normal?