I had not yet come to terms with the loss of my baby girl, and I am hit with the death of my mother.  I am barely managing to keep my head above water, and I feel as though I am drowning.  I know Mom is not suffering anymore,and I know she is with Pop, but damn it, now I am alone.  I feel like they both abandoned me.  And right now with the loss of my daughter I really need them.  What in the hel…