It almost seems like I take one step foward then five steps backwards.  I still have a large void in my heart.  My mother has been gone for 17 months, almost to hard to believe! Most of the day I think of my Mother and my Dad.  I know there at peace and are together.  But I can't get beyond the lonely moments, my daughters are young adults basically on there own.  Don't see them to often, they ha…