On 8/26/2009, we lost a precious son-Ryan- 31 yrs. old -to suicide-it was the worst day of our lives- the day our lives changed forever! It has been 4 months since that day & I still cry uncontrollibly every day . It has been hard to eat- food just cloggs up in my throat because I always think how he loved good food. For weeks it was so hard to sleep because it was such a loss my mind was so…