I'm not even sure where to start...I lost my husband on August 22, 2013. It was completely unexpected and I found him when I get off work. I tried CPR but he had be gone to long already. We have a 2 year old son and I have a 7 year old daughter who he loved like his own. I feel like I am constantly on a roller coaster of emotions...I feel guilty when a friend makes me laugh, I feel like I'm a fak…