July 13, 2010 was the 1 year anniversary of my husband of ten years death. We all went to his favorite spot at the river, and threw a rose in the water for him. I thought if I could just make it passed the 1 yr mark, that I'd be ok. But I really don't feel any different. Still no sense of closer. Still so sad. Still so many regrets. Still plauged with survivor's guilt. And I'm still missing my…