This is my Brother Benjamin Wayne Carter. He was born in Sayre Ok on March 3 1982 and Died July 21 2007. My brother was the most amazing man ever. He was 3 years older then me and always looked after me, protected me....sometimes was even over protective. I spent my whole life looking up to him...he was my hero. He was my best friend. We have never been apart more then a few days...never lived in seperate houses....if something was bothering me....he knew exactly what it was without me telling him...we were connected. The day i found my brothers body, laying one my parents couch as if he was napping, only he was blue. Ben had fallen the night before i guess and has layed down to take a nap at mom and dads and never woke up. I held my brothers cold blue body and pleaded with God to bring him back please. my Daddy walked in shortly after and tried CPR. My two nephews were with me when i found them and they were only 2 and 3 at the time. The last 2 and 1/2 years has been a rollar coaster. Hurting, blame, guilt, anger, depression....all of these and more and it just goes in a circle never ending. I want to live again. I want my brother back....