Andrew, you have my sympathy. I lost my dear live-at-home son 3 1/2 years ago, and it still hurts every day. The pain does get less acute, but just today I had reason to go to the beautiful old area of town where he lived and it brought back so many memories. You still haven't said who you lost. Please pour it all out. I know the feeling of having someone gone. Please talk as much as you wish. David.