I got married in my home town where I worked for a mini grocery chain, 27 stores, and of course, we were a close net family of workers.  The owner was at a function where he ate a piece of cake and it was so good.  He made an offer to provide her a Bakery to make baked goods for his 27 stores.  Mrs. Smally made my wedding cake.  We took part of the cake back to my wife's home town and they loved the cake and the leftover Whiskey.

Sometimes I go back and re-read posts, I guess for comfort.  I appreciate you said I was important.  After your best friend passes, you don't get so much encouragement.  Yesterday, a good lady hugged and and to be honest, after her well-meaning condolences, I think it reopened the wound, and put me in such a down mood.  Sometimes it all seems so unreal.  I think I am in an angry stage, but I know with time, I will be able to handle my tender emotions.  I do have a purpose driven life, but there sure are some sad moments.  I am changing my home a little bit so that I am not constantly in a negative place.  I packed up his much loved books and hope they find a reader who loves the writer's he loved.  I kept saying I would read them, but he is not here to discuss them.  God Bless you have a wonderful day.

Thanks Barbara, I might figure this message stuff out, might not. lol

My husband died in his sleep about 3 months ago - it's tough.  I am amazed at how stong I have been, but crushed.  This was my second loss of a spouse, and although not a child of my own has died, my gran daughter was killed.

I am past retirement age, but have the blessing of still able to teach for the GED program, and also have custody of 2 little boys.  Their 18 year old brother is with us as well.           I am still in the control your tears mode.  No one understands who has not been there.  I needed some reassurancw I guess.  Today has been good.  Those days surprise me too.  So sorry for your loss.  My daughter llost her only child about the same time you did.  We talk about her everyday.  Christle and her husband did have a baby boy, so life is more on track for them.  Thanks for speaking to me.  I really felt I was at a non working message board.  I have not logged out.  I have to find my password.  

Hi Barbra. This Becky Jackson. I just read your loving comment you wrote me. I want Thank you for showing interest. My son Donte was 20, he died by suicide, I found him in his closet. That’s when my world came crushing down on me it was a terrible painful ordeal. A part of me died too. This all happened on August 22,2018. And it’s like a broken record playing over and over again. Seeing what I found was horrifying no one should go through this. I miss him so much I literally hurt so bad, my sweet boy. 

Hello Barbara, David is right,I was reading up on that.Birthday month flowers,which month are you ?

Wow,  I did not at all think that anyone would care to read, let alone respond to,  my post.  I don't have anyone (other than the Lord) I can talk to to help me get through this experience. I truly cannot tell you how much your responses mean to me.  I know that God will never leave my side, but knowing that there are people who I've never met that cared enough to respond to my brokenness gives me additional hope.   The range and intensity of emotions I continue to feel since my father's passing on October 24, 2018 makes me wonder if this will ever get any easier.

Barbara,continuation ,still trying to navigate .I get cut off and have to start again.What I was going to add was that I go to Bereavement group and I'm unable to speak of my feelings,so through this site,it makes it easier.Family doesn't want to hear of my grief,they don't know what to say.

Barbara,Thank you also for your suggestion about the group I was asking about,I was able to figure it out after awhile and so I created it under"Words to our Loved ones",your welcome to join,unless like you said you do that on FB,I don't have FB,not familiar with it.So here I am able to have somewhat of a relief/release of my thoughts.

Barbara,Do you know how I would go about creating a group on here ?