Good morning Brittany, I slowly coming to terms with it, but it still makes me angry why he was taken so young and so quickly without warning. Wasn't ever given the chance to say proper goodbyes and tell him how much I loved him and how much he meant to me.
I too lost my dad 4 years ago and we were extremely close as well. That death affected me teemendously.
Reading through your post are very encouraging. Losing someone in the death is one of the worst things you can go through. Unfortunately growing up, I didn't see things that way. I tried to commit suicide and when that failed, I ended up in a treatment facility. Long story short having a great support system is key. Psalms 34:18 really helped me get through.