Hi Caryle,

  I'm so sorry to read of your terrible loss. My son passed unexpectantly a week before Thanksgiving last November. My family was blindsided by this loss and needless to say that our lives much less the holiday season will never have the same happiness that it once was.

  My wife has type one diabetes and she thought the same, if anything happen to me, she would have our son. He was not only my son but has he grew into adulthood, he was one of my closest friends. We did a lot of nice things that father/sons do up to the very end. I have bad days and very bad days. I guess my great days are the ones that are just plain bland. I'll never be truely happy, for I will never be whole again.

This site is great in that we all know what each other is going through and that we are not doing it alone. I want to give you my very best and hope to speak to you again.

Hi Carlyle, I lost my middle son in April of 09. I know your pain and I wish I could hug it away. Please call the prosecutor's office in your county and ask them for information on counseling. Please don't be afraid to go. We all need a place to go to let it all out and not be frowned upon. When you're not there, we're all here for you. You're not alone. My father (my rock) gave me the best advice, "don't try to supress what you feel, just let yourself feel it, it's all necessary in the grieving process." So, I take one roller coaster ride after another. I have another son in California that I wish would come home, I need him here so badly but he just doesn't understand.

My thoughts are with you and I'm here for you anytime you want to or need to vent.

*hugs* 

Hi Caryle,

First let me tell you my heart goes out to you, my daughter was my best friend she was 18 when she slip in the bath tub bumped her and and drowned i brought her back and she died again three days later, I was a single mom of two girls my oldest lives on her own and me and Samantha did everything together.

To ans your question what do you do, that is a very hard question and differ from person to person, I try to celbrate Samantha life and live for me and her and remember all of the good things we did sometimes time that help sometimes that makes it worse. When I get mad I have a punching bag and (I had to get gloves my hands were bleeding) I just punch on it till I can not any more and they gives me some relief, and I always try to give it to God, I seem to take it back a lot, but that is ok. and I talk to people like you that understand and it helps and sometimes I cry but you go on. You learn to cope it will be 4 years in oct and it gets easier, pain is the same. I wish I had an easier ans, I also go to a phychistrist that helps,, group did not help,, I hate it when people say I am sorry or what can I do to help, well i the only thing they can do to help is bring Samantha back that is all I want,, but I smile and say no there is nothing you can do. Well I am rambling, if you want to talk leave a msg     Melissa

Hi Caryle,

First let me tell you my heart goes out to you, my daughter was my best friend she was 18 when she slip in the bath tub bumped her and and drowned i brought her back and she died again three days later, I was a single mom of two girls my oldest lives on her own and me and Samantha did everything together.

To ans your question what do you do, that is a very hard question and differ from person to person, I try to celbrate Samantha life and live for me and her and remember all of the good things we did sometimes time that help sometimes that makes it worse. When I get mad I have a punching bag and (I had to get gloves my hands were bleeding) I just punch on it till I can not any more and they gives me some relief, and I always try to give it to God, I seem to take it back a lot, but that is ok. and I talk to people like you that understand and it helps and sometimes I cry but you go on. You learn to cope it will be 4 years in oct and it gets easier, pain is the same. I wish I had an easier ans, I also go to a phychistrist that helps,, group did not help,, I hate it when people say I am sorry or what can I do to help, well i the only thing they can do to help is bring Samantha back that is all I want,, but I smile and say no there is nothing you can do. Well I am rambling, if you want to talk leave a msg     Melissa