I understand that frustration with feeling like there was never closure. But death is something that is so unnatural and emotionally unexpected...even when it is expected. I am sure your husband knew you loved him and cared for him. What methods have you tried to cope? I am a Bible reader so as soon as my mom passed I started reading the Bible a lot and praying. I found some comfort from the scriptures there. Are you a Bible reader?
Good morning Caterina!
Welcome to Legacy Connect! I'm so sorry to hear you lost your husband. I'm sure here you will find lots of support and you will see that you are not alone. Have you been having a hard time coming to terms with everything? I lost my mom 10 years ago and it's still hard.