Hi Cathe, what's brings you to the Grief Support page?  I did not know about this site, but when I found it, it was the best thing ever.  Not everybody wants to talk in our everyday personal life.  But on this site, thousands of people are talking to each other everyday.  And the coolest thing about it is that we do not know each other, but we can share our emotions, our anger, our smiles, our tears.  I lost my father when I was fifteen and lost my mother ten years ago.  It was not easy because I wore so many masks since the death of my father; and it took me over 40 years to start pulling each one off after the death of my mother.  The masks are not all off yet, but the majority of the ones that brought me the most pain I have left them on the table.  Hope to hear from you soon.  Take care and God bless.