Deb, You are in the beginning stages of your grief. I call it the numb stage. You sort of just accept tomorrow because it just came. For 7 years you took care of your husband and then you hit a brick wall at 100 miles an hour and then there is nothing, it just stopped. I know I hit that wall twice, once when I took care of my mom and 7 months after she passed I took care of my husband for 17 months until his passing.
Families, what do you say about them? With one dying breath my mother-in-law never said a kind word to me or about me. She blamed me for his cancer! Eleven months later she passed away with this bitterness towards me. We never had children so I am alone. I live 3 hours away from my brother, I was never close too, so I am totally alone, and he has definitely moved on with HIS life!
My husband passed from lung cancer just one year ago and there has not been a day I have not shed a tear over his passing. My heart is broken and so heavy with grief. He was my everything we worked well together and we always were there to protect each other, to pick each other up when we fell or faltered, we were a team. But somehow I am able to move forward and accept the day God has given me. Stay strong, it is not an easy road we are walking down but we always seem to get to another day. Hugs, jane P.
Deb I am so sorry for your loss and even sorrier you had to join us on this roller coaster called grief. This grief is like no other, you will not get over it you just get threw it. You have lost your soul mate, your best friend, your partner for life, there are no words to describe our feelings. You will now be able to see who your true friends are. But with all that said you have come to the right place, here we are all grieving, we are all in different stages of grief, we pass no judgements and you need to realize there are no timeframes in which you need to follow. Come here often even if it is to read posts. You will receive many prayers, good words of advice and tons cyber hugs. Hugs, Jane P.