Hi Deb, Nice to met you.  I dont want to be here,on such a sad page, but I am. I hope you are doing ok. As for me I am not. As we are all sad on this page, life as we knew it, is gone forever.

it is very hard when people expect us to just move on....how can we move on when our heart is left in the past?
I say it this way, “time moves and we are carrried with time, and we carry that love with us, but we dont MOVE ON” 

Its so hard for me to grieve alone, no one understands how each day  im depressed in mind, spirit and even my body moves slowy. 

Deb, thinking of you today. Be strong, and remember the good times. You will be together again one day, and then it will be forever. David (Bernie's dad).

deb bobby will be with you am sure.its such a great time to celebrate your love for your daughter and be happy even if it just for a day.have wonderful time.your son would not want anything to spoil her day.so just try and have peace and fun with your family.congrats

I know that your son had passed the day before my son under similar circumstances but I don't recall your son's story. Did he show any signs? Were you present?? If you feel up to it, could you give me details on your son's passing. The 16th of Nov was my son's last day at work. When I went to his apartment I could piece his final day through text on his cell phone, conversation with his girl friend and receipts laying around is apartment.

My wife and I paid for my son's funeral expenses so the court awarded us his assets. I drive his Mustang convertible during the warm months. I just feel so close to him when I'm in his car. I didn't touch any of his stuff, just cleaned his car as needed. I can find little things in the car storage compartments that I'll look at some times but it goes back to where he had it.

I had to pack up his apartment and I've got his personnel stuff packed in a storage rental. When I go over to this storage, I feel his presence so much. I'll pull a shirt out of the plastic container and it has that smell that reminds me of him. My wife and I took his dirty clothes and put them in a plastic bag in our basement. I'll pull them out at times and I can still smell his cologne. He never caused me a minute of headache in his life and I'm grateful that I got along with him every single day of his life.

When my son was born, I had a job where I worked 6 days on and three days off. Many of my three days were week days where my wife worked and we were home together. I was pretty young myself but it was such a joy watching him grow. I think men in general are a little less mature and when my wife was the mature parent I could be doofy with him and he enjoyed that.

Thanks for being available to communicate. This site allows me the chance to express my feelings when my friends and siblings don't seem to want to hear about them. Take care!               Jeff

Hi Deb....yes I see the tech people removed her right away.  Well on my page she said she, " liked what I wrote and wanted to get to know me better and would I send her my personal email address and she would send me a picture of her so we could get to know each other".....now is that creepy or what?  They removed her and blocked her from getting in again.

Why oh why do these people do this??? 

Thank you Deb.  I'm hoping to find some peace and consolulation here and to offer any thing my experience and journey can offer others.

i hit the wrong number dec 13 2010

hi my name is melinda im new here i lost my brother Robert to suicide in Dec 13 2011 it is the hardest thing and a nightmare i feel like il never wake out off im so sorry for your lose