I don't get on here much, just read the posts in my e-mails. I was thinking about you and hoping you're hanging in there. The holidays are coming up and it sounds like we are all looking forward to them (sarcasm). Just sending warm thoughts and hugs your way.
Hi Debra your daughter is beautiful I lost my son and am very sad. I see she loves horses. they are nice but i wish i had spent the mone on trips with my children now he is gone i cannot believe it.. it is very sad.. love to you carrie
Hi Debra, yes it is one day at a time. This Thursday will mark 6 months and I am having a hard time accepting it. I am not eating nor sleeping. I get up and go to work because I know if I don't I will just stay home and cry all day long. I know that isn't the way he would want me to be but that is my life. How are you doing?
Thank you Debra for the kind words. I think I can sum up my feelings as surreal I know you can relate. My son worked out of town allot so I still can’t grasp that he is not coming home. It will be 8 months at the end of this month and I have watched life go on all around me I have seen births, weddings, birthday parties and other celebrations all while smiling and saying all the appropriate things but inside I just want to scream “How can you people be laughing and enjoying life?!?” When my kids were little I’d tell them that they had an inside voice and an outside voice. I taught them to use it appropriately. That is how I relate to my heart. I have an outside heart that does all the appropriate things and then I have an inside heart that half is missing.Day by day we learn to take one step at a time we learn to "”cope” as it never seems to get easier. I light a tea light every day for him so he knows I am doing ok . Again Debra Kathryn was simply beautiful.
Your daughter is very beautiful... I have to say I too have Tommy days... I think of him every second. It has been 2 months now since we lost him on Christmas Day. Oh how painful it is to wake everyday and know it is real... that he is gone. My heart breaks over and over all day long.. The mornings are the worse... usually around 4:00 am I start reliving everything... Ground Hog day you might say. I sink myself into reading all that I can on the subject of afterlife... near death experiences, and dream analysis. The only thing that truly helps..is GOD. I know my Tommy was too good for this earth and did not have anything to learn here to make his soul worthy of heaven... God knew this... I feel like Tommy was a gift to me to help me learn... to help everyone who came in contact with and saw his beautiful smile and light in his eyes. He was perfect in every way.. where he needed to be.... in his soul. He was different from the rest of us and we all knew it. I can tell you this Put your faith in God that you will see that beautiful smile again, you will see her and love her and get to spend eternity with her. Thank God it wont be all that long for us.
Hi, so sweet of you to reply. Everyday is different and you already know. Some days are better than others but none are good. Thursday (the 24th) marked 5 months without Davey. So very hard and yet I know this is only the beginning. We will live with this pain for the rest of our lives. I call my days "Davey Days"...either it is a good Davey Day or a bad Davey Day. Most are bad but my friends and family are very supportive. I read everything I can get my hands on for helps and support.
How are you doing? I pray for all of us in the situation. It isn't suppose to happen this way. Have you joined "Loss of a Child" on this site? It is very helpful and everyone there has lost a child at some time or another. Some recent, others some time ago but we all feel the same pain and are there to help each other. Join and I think it will help you. We all need all the support we can get and those there know just want is happening.
Thanks again for writing. Lets make sure to keep in touch. Please beware there are trolls here that ask for personal information. Don't give that out to anyone. They make sound sincere but they are not, especially if they don't post a picture. We have all had them from time to time. They usually say email mail me, lets be friends or something like that!!!