I totally understand how you feel. My dad passed away on New years eve. It is 8 months since he died and i feel like it is getting harder. Some times I feel like screaming out to the heavens to him and would give any thing to have one more bear hug. I feel like he is getting further and further away from me. He went into hospital on the 31st of October. Happily, we had him out for Christmas. I am dreading the autumn and winter so much as i feel we will all go thru the pain…