denise thank you i now know that i am not the only one with this problem my carologist has given me pills but i never touch them they were to relax me at night time: i am not taking somonix before bed. i just started them last night. hopefully this would help me because i do not know what else to do, i miss my husband more and more each day i have his picture on my cell phone that is the only thing i have of him that i can look at each and every day again thanks

hi denise,

i thank you so much for all the wonderful and kind words you have offered to me. and i only knew jim 2-1/2 years. 40 years. wow! i know now, at 45, that is something i will never experience. i have always been envious of those who have had a long term love like that.

i lost my first love, at 18, 27 years ago, due to a motorcycle accident. he died after 9 days on life support. i then married an abusive maniac, left him after 10 years, and raised/supported my 2 kids completely on my own for the last 14. i met jim, and he, in my 17-year-old daughters words, was 'more of a father to me than my dad will ever be'.

lucky, i have been told to fall so completely in love twice (jims mom tells me this), even though it was short lived, for some never find something that special in a lifetime. i am not so sure. what a dream it would have been to experience what you and your husband did.

God Bless You,

katy

i love that denise.

bless you, and happy valentines day.

hi denise,

I am sending this to you as a test. I sent you a long, long reply and for some reason I could not get it to go thru.

testing testing...

Hi Denise,yea I lost my hiusband to bile duct cancer he lasted 2 1/2 yrs after being diagnosed and we were together 39 yrs. I know how u feel, sometimes I feel I can't and don't want to go on. I have two boys one 27 and he has his own hose the other one is 25 and home with me and I have another boy, family friend living with me and they do help me but I cry every day. Dave past away Dec 09..can't believe he's gone we had so many more things to do. I know everyone says this will pass but I will never forget him....we just have to hang in!

Jan

My husband of 32 years also passed away on Oct.20th, 2009.
He had lung cancer and really suffered the last 8 months of his life. It hurt to watch him go through all that he did.
I have no energy or desire to be around people on Christmas.
We had no children together but he had 4 by his first wife. Two of them are not speaking to me at this time so that makes it hard.
I miss him so much!

Barbara

thank you for the poem it says it all,thank you for sharing it with me. My heartache is always with me., but I try to think of all our good times which of course brings on the tears.