Missing my Dad
I guess I have finally found it's time to try and start healing.
I lost my Dad June 15,2008. Father's Day.
I live about a 2 hour drive from my parents home. So I am close enough to rush in to Ottawa if needed.
When I called like I always did to wish him a "Happy Father's Day", I got no answer. So I went on line to see if I could find my younger sister on MSN messenger. She told me Dad was taken to the hospital the night before. So that Father's day the two of us sat waiting to hear something.
Finally Mom called and said the Dr.said he should be good the next day. She was heading back to the hospital to stay with Dad along with my older sister and her husband.So she said there was no reason to come down to see him. So I listened to mom's wishes.
Sadly, that was the wrong decision. A few hours later.. the phone rang and was my brother-in-law calling to notify us that Dad had passed away peacefully.
I was devastated, since my Dad and I were extremely close and so much alike.
Everything after that seemed to be so cold and my younger sister and i were left out of most thing only informed where to show up.
I guess my biggest hurt is not being there to say "good bye" and then his ashes were scatterer and neither my younger nor myself were included in this.
It seems like Mom and my older sister forget that there are tow other daughters and they are hurting as much as they are.
Even Mom's sister told her she had two other daughters to think about.
So here I am .. my story in a nut shell.
I miss Dad daily and I cry think about him, I have not been able to get past this..
I need something to help! I am at a loss..
Thanks all for Listening/reading..
if you have questions I will answer.. I guess I just need to be able to get the hurt,pain and loss out..