Dylan, we all express our sadness over your loss. i hope that you will continue to talk to us here on legacy, because we all do know how you are feeling, and we do care very much...i lost my son last august, 2009, and it has been a nightmare that i will never wake up from.. i wish i could tell you that it will get better in time, but i just do not have that answer.. we all suffer in our own way, and survive however we can...there are alot of broken hearts wandering through this legacy site, and it continues to grow every day, so please stay with us, talk to us, let us all help each other in some small way it does seem to ease the pain from time to time, because i know somone is listening...tammy E