This baby girl is my son's daughter Julianna. He never got to see her or hold because he was killed December 27,2006. Julianna was born on March 20,2007. I miss my son so much that if their are times am dead. I know how that sounds ,but I understand how you all feel. Someone told my right after Ernie died that. Welcome to the club of sadness. You see none of us joined , we are just a member. Tonight I couldn't sleep at all because I was just to sad. I loved my son Ernie with all of my heart and soul. I was so lucky HE picked me to be his MOM! I am so sorry to all of you that are going though this. Ernie was just walking to pay a bill for my mom on december 27,2006. He didn't know that some guy was not only going to rob him of twenty dollars but, rob him of his life. He was so happy at the time. Everything Ernie had wanted for his life was coming together. Law school,great job, wife and too boot a baby girl he was looking foward to spoiling! I too have my anger times. why? what! if? and yes even on me blaming my parents . It was so shameful of me. I was just so angry and am still but, know I'm just placing the blame on the guy who killed him and me! I thank the Lord everyday for the time he gave me with this just beautiful little boy. I'm lucky to of had that time. Yes it so true life goes on. I know we all feel that way even if we try to stop life. It done and we are the one's thinking why me? My minister told me something that I haven't forgotten. He said if you could have your child back, would you want your son to live and had have the pain of lossing his mother the same way? First I was like yes ! Then I though how selfish I sounded. I woulded have wanted my son to be sad like I am. So you see for what ever reason or time our child was here. Our child was done here on this earth. Even if we weren't ready to let them go. Ernie had a heart of gold! He loved His Dad and I. He love this three sisters and his neice and every one. He taught us how to laugh and love. Yes and then there was his way of getting rid of the boys that liked his sisters. His dad and I loved that!! But still here I am missing him. Just like you missing your child. We are in this club together so God bless you all and just hold on.
(Ernie's Mom)