Frank, I'm sorry about the oss of your mom. In some ways you may not see the world the same way, and that can be a good thing. Over time the pain gets different and you can remember the good things without so much sadness.
Hi Frank! I know how you feel! My mother passed away five months ago from Ovarian Cancer and she was on life support and we had to issue the DNR. I didn't even get to say goodbye because one day she was lucid and the next she was unconscious! It will get better with time!