Hi mourning mother my name is Alicia so sorry for you're lossi lost two sons on 1979 n 2009 i miss them more jesse going on two years. Sometimes i feel like im goin crazy can't stop thinking of him.miss him so.i cry everyday. God bless you. Alicia Jesses mom
I lost my son (he is in the profile pic) 9 days before his 19th birthday. People say it will get easier but it seems to get harder and harder. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of him and cry because I miss him so much.
Please please please help me. It is coming up on 2 yrs now. Where did the time go? Am I weird because I desire to go and hold my son? I want to scream yet no sound comes out. I want to begin to throw and break things. I am angry. I miss my baby. This is NOT happening, am I finally losing it?
Or.......worse yet, has it been gone? :(
I lost my son on 11/09/09 he was 24 yrs old he has a son that just turned 2 who lives with me most of the time. He is the reason that I can stand to get through everyday. I really thought the accident and th funeral and the burial were going to be the hardest part what a fool i was. I feel so alone and I feel like no one else could possibly think the crazy things that I think about. I honestly cannot see myself coming out on the other side of this.
Hello Grieving Mom. I just read your post from Aug. 9th (?) about the loss of your son. I am so sorry for your loss, as well as everyone's. I don't know what led me to this site, but I have known for a long time that I am meant to help other grieving parents. I have been reaching out to other parents the past two years, and I am finally starting to write the book about grief that I hope will help so many.
Anyway, I wanted to share with you a similar experience I had when I lost my 13 y.o. daughter, almost fourteen years ago. She has now been gone longer than the 13 short years she had on earth. I was a single mom, and like you, my ex-husband was emotionally unavailable, to put it kindly. The company I worked for harassed me so much because I wasn't "over it" yet, that I finally quit my job 8 months after her death. I really didn't have anyone to help me through my pain and without a job I was having severe financial problems, to the point where I almost lost my home. This led to what they call "complicated grief". Like you, I was also diagnosed with PTSD. I feel that I can really understand your grief, and I want to tell you that you are not alone. It will get easier, but it will be a long journey. Feeling your son's presence and seeing him walk down the hallway and back through the veil is your son's way of letting you know that he still exists. He is just in a different dimension than we are. Keep your heart and mind open to receive the love and comfort from him in the future. It is such a wonderful gift. Our loved ones always reach out to us in many different ways, and they always will. Our souls will always be connected.
As I go through this site and read your posts, I feel like I am reading my own words. Never stop reaching out to others who have also lost a child. Although grief is an individual journey, so many of our experiences will ring true and familiar to others. I really think this helps us from going crazy and succumbing to our grief. None of us are completely alone in our grief, and part of the grieving experience is reaching out to others. Broken people help broken people. God bless you and your son, and all the grieving parents on this site. Much love, Linda
I lost my twin son in a motorcyle accident and we truly feel like it was yesterday, not when then he was 18 and now his twin is 41 and still as affected as me! However, as each day goes by, I start thinking that he is much better off than living in this world. I've also often felt like the last sentence of the previous writer who said Peace that Passes ALL Understanding!
today is 7 months since my son who was 24 died. i am still trying to understand the mental pain he was struggling with at the time of his death. it is becoming an everyday thing from what i have seen. the day my son died, my heart died too. i envy people who still have thier children especially thier sons. cherish everyday with your children because never did i ever imagine my life without my children
yes no one accept a mother or a father who has lot a child can eer know this deep and horrific pain. We have lost so much, the years the time, the love , everything invested to raise strong , healthy , loving children. To lose a child is to lose part of oneself. I dont know who I am anymore. I used to have a son, a wonderful , loving , handsome, walking , talking, hugging, thinking, breathing son.