Good for you on the college classes..It is all day by day for me so far. I will definitely keep you in my prayers for the continued strength to keep going in the positive direction and for your family. Remember that your dad is with you in the way that death can't take away. I bet he is proud of what you are doing..Keep it up and we'll talk soon!!! Vicki

Hi Irish, thanks for your email , I tried to add to yahoo messenger but it must not have worked; if you want to email you can; it is: jenns808@yahoo.ca
Today is a month from the day we buried Dad. I am having a very hard day. I cannot stop crying. I went to his grave last weekend a couple times. I stand there and cannot beleive it and then I cry so hard I almost throw up. I feel so alone in this. My sister and brothers do not live near me and they do not call.
I struggle now not only with losing Dad but feeling like all my friends don't understand and don't even care. They disappoint me. One told me I was "feeling sorry myself" when he asked me How my mom was doing and I said "everyone asks me how she is and never anybody wants or cares to know or ask how I am"
Now today I decided I am allowed to feel sorry for myself. I sometimes wish I was dead. I shouldn't say it but its true. I miss him so much I want to be with him instead of living here with so many people who do not care.

sorry it took so long for me to get back to you. My husband had knee surgery so I have been a bit busy. Of course we can be friends, I also need someone I can talk to about what I am feeling too. This is a very hard time. Sunday was 7 months my dad is gone and it was very hard. We always watched football together and now it is me alone!!! So any time I am here. I will make sure I keep track of this. talk to you soon.

Your Dad sounds like he was very brave and you were brave too. It is hard to be I know. I was the same way, always putting on a brave front to him but when I walk away from the hospital I cried and cried and cried some more. He just turned 84 but he had the mind of a 40year old. He was still so smart and his memory fantastic. He still laughed and had fun when we visited him in the hospital but his body failed him. I miss him so much. I have a picture of him on my computer and tears fall down my face onto my lap when I look at him. I know he is with God in heaven though. He knew he was going there and was not afraid to die. He told my Mom he was ready. He knew he could not do more on earth. The only thing that comforts me is knowing he is pain free in heaven and watching over me. I have to think of that always so I can function each day. I want to stay in bed otherwise and just cry under my blankets but I know he would be mad if I did that. He would say "go and have fun with your kids" and so I am trying each day. It is hard work to go on but this is what I think about .

Hi Irish,Sure we can be friends here. I am not sure how to add anyone. All i can think of is just to write to eachother in the comment box. I am sorry i did not respond sooner. I kept checking my inbox and not my own response to you. I hope you are trying to hang in there, Each day always brings different feelings and not always bad but the feeling of lose can get deeper. People tell me day by day but sometimes it still seems unreal. talk to you soon. vicki

Hello, I read your Dad passed away on Sept 17 and my Dad was Sept 12th. These have been very hard days . I started to read a book a friend gave me and I am enjoying it. So far anyway. How old was your Dad?

Irish , I am trying to add you as a friend here but it doesn't seem to work.

I definitely understand the feelings of loss and this is just a nightmare that i will wake up from. My mom died two weeks ago and eventhough i am in alot of pain i think of how free she is now from all her pains and struggles and it helps with my own feelings. remember that he is helping you with your grief. I feel my mom at times and always ask her for help to understand why she left. I hope you find some peace and keep the faith about your dad and the good times.