Thank you also. I think in our time of loss its good to have a site like this to reach out to others.. My Mom took sick in Jan. of this year and was diagnoised with acute renal failure. But dummy me, I didn't realize the severity of her illness, til it was too late. My sister kept warning me that Mom didn't have long. I didn't believe her. Mom almost died from inflammation of the veins. she took a seizure and they had to put her in a coma, Mom pulled thru. But this was so totally unexpected. She wanted us to stop diaylsis and my family couldn't let her. well Mom took matters in her own hands. She quit eating. and nothing we could do would get her to eat again she was just too weak to continue. When she was admitted to West Penn Hospital in Pgh she weighed 267 lbs. when she died she weighed 150 lbs. I took care of her in the hospital. I am a cna by trade and she wouldn't allow anyone to wash her but me. well the day she passed, she died at 7:25pm. I usually showed up at 8pm and just sat with her til 10:30pm. I usually worked 11-7. I felt terrible that I wasn't with her either when she died. But the nurse that was on duty that day, made me realize something. She died half an hour before I showed up. she loved me that much, she didnt want me to see her die.. It didn't take the pain away, but it made me feel a little bit better. I think your Mom felt the same way. She didn't want you to suffer anymore. Thank you for reading my long boring letters. and thank you for your kind words too! Take care