Hi Janine, I felt moved to write to u after reading your feelings. My mom passed shortly before mothers day last year.. and so this is officially our 2nd one without her.. I have also felt the need to seek more counseling than what was offered thru hospice organizations. I have just searched.. its been like layers to peel off. Next will probably be a support group thru the Church. There was NO way that i could have done it (group setting) shortly after my mom passed... i have some post tramatic stress lingering.. many visions i was shocked to see, and experience while caring for my mom at home. I give u much credit in recognizing the need to find more counseling. I believe losing our mom's is different for all... i am so close to being an orphan now.. many friends have left. They haven't gone thu this Heartache and dont understand my continued sadness. Or those who have, don't want Any reminders of their pain. Funny, i am the first one to Jump for others emergencies.. where are they now? My daughter and i are struggling still... not as often.. but it feels as if a part of me has died. My interest's arent there anymore. Ive told off almost everyone who has ever hurt my feelings ... felt good at the time.. but has left us isolated. Have u felt any of these feelings? Well, Blessings to u today Dear.. May God Bless and Heal all of our Hearts in due time.