Thank you for your kind thoughts and prayers, I am sorry for your loss as well. I know that God has a plan, I just don't like it. I hear so many people's stories, and I know that it is possible to go on, that I must continue on. It just seems like there is no reason. If it weren't for my only other son, I do not know if I could. But, he is engaged, and the thought of a grandchild fills my heart with the possibility of joy somewhere in the future. So, I do it for him, maybe one day, I will get up and feel I am doing it for me.
Again, thank you and my prayers are for you now, as well.
I'm having a hard time keeping up on this site and I just found your message. I'm sorry! I constantly have to remind myself that I have 3 children, not just one. Yet my thoughts seem to be on Garrett every second of every day. That isn't fair to my other kids, I know, and I'm trying to work on it. I am in such a deep, dark hole right now and I need to see light at the end of the tunnel. It's hard to believe that it will be a year before we know it. I do not feel any differently than I did that night, except perhaps a little deeper pain because shock set in that night. I hope you're doing ok, and I too, hope we can comfort one another. No parent should ever have to experience burying their child......
Hi Jodi thanks for writing. My son was my oldest of the three kids. Death is so different when it comes to our children. My thoughts are on him and what happened and why we couldn't or didn't prevent it. I know we have to come to some understading and go on with our lives. It is very hard to go on. I was already depressed when this happened now i am even more so. The thought of life without our babies to see life through their eyes and their love is unbearable. love to you. hope we can comfort eachother somehow because this is the most unbearable shattered feeling I have ever had.. carrie L
Hi Jodi i am so sorry we are here. it is sad i lost my son before you but in 2010 the worst year of my life. I don't understand it. and feel very deep guilt for it could have been prevented. i guess everyone could say that. but had i taken a different path i could have easily prevented. it. love and hugs to you and some peace. i really fluctuate. it seems to have gotten harder to me. but i am too idle. something i wish he hadn't done. i love him so. carrie L