Thank you for letting me know, and I believe you. You are in the same kind of place I am. Yes, I think that life has worn us down, and the zeal that goes with it. I too throw myself into doing for others, joining coalitions to try and make a difference in the world, etc., hoping that these involvements will restore me in addition to helping others. What you wrote tells me that you are using this same strategy to cope with your losses and ongoing struggles. We are survivors. And from what you have shared, I know you are going to be okay. I do so relate to you and where you're at. Take good care.. gentle hugs.
I read your post Johanna. I hear your heart, having known a life of suffering myself, the most recent loss being the death of my son Charles. His suicide has caused immeasurable anguish to me, and to his siblings, father, grandmother, and others, who have all felt confusion, guilt, etc. Consequently, I need to ask you straight out, are you thinking about suicide and killing yourself? Please answer me honestly. If you are feeling this hopeless, you need to call someone and let them know your mind set. They can help get you connected with resources and supports to build your resiliency up again. Sometimes it may require treatment, such as medication and/or counseling, or merely a peer grief recovery support group. But whatever it is, you need to surround yourself with outside supports to gird you up during a vulnerable time until your hope gets stronger again. Please tell me you will take this one step? You are in my thoughts and prayers today sweetie. Stay on this site and keep me and others posted, so we know you are seeking help and supports to get you through this rough period.