Hey Karen. How are you doing tonight? I wish I could say I was good. I woke up angry, recentful, sad and judt nasty. Leave me alone, attitude. I found out that it appeared the pilot of the my fiance's plane was worned 3 times that the weather was not good. He should have never tried to fly in that weather. Why did he need to get home so fast I couldn't wait a few hrs.? Why do he put others lives on the line? I am having a hard time letting t go today. I cried so much today in Grief support group today. , 2 hrs. non stop. I am exausted, worn out, beat up and just numb. about all this. I want to scream yet I don't have the streangth to do so.
I wanna know how you are? If you ever just want to vent, I'm here. I need this site and the ones on it.
Never feel badly talking about your problems on this site, this is the best place for it. We can anonymously share the worst of what we're going through, as well as the best whenever we do have moments of hope or insight or thankfulness. But as we're going through it, there are probably going to be more "worst" moments than "best" to share for a while. I like this site because I don't have to censor myself. Right after David died, when I was trying to be strong for everyone else, I would write on this site exactly how I was feeling, and I would re-tell the story of losing my love, with all the details that the people I live with don't necessarily want to hear again. But I can write out my pain here when I need to, and later write of hope when I'm in touch with that.
This is the place where everybody knows your pain.
Thank you for your prayers, Karen, and I'll keep praying for you, too.
Karen, my heart goes out to you! My husband of 27 years died on September 2. This holiday season is going to be hard on us, I know. Do whatever you need to do to get through, because I understand from others that if we make it through this year it will get easier. So if you need to be alone, do that for yourself. I believe that we can talk to our lost loves, and they will hear and know how much we love and miss them, and how much we appreciate them, and how wonderful life was with them. Hang in there, Karen. I'm saying a prayer for you right now, and for all of us on this site who are grieving, especially with the holidays. Hold on, make it through, and God bless you. God bless us all!
Dear Karen, I received your email and it breaks my heart. I know 100% of how you feel. My fiance died Oct 26th from a plan crash as he was coming home from a hunting trip he wasn't even enjoying. There has not been a single day I have felt I didn't want to be here. I want to be with my sweet Malcolm. He knew how to love me, make me laugh, cry and he just knew how to take care of me. I wonder though why you had to move out of your home. There are so many option in keeping your home. I too am going to have to leave my home but I still have it for a little while. Malcolm and I were in the process of making a will but he did just days before we could finish it so my home, our property we bought in Tenneessee our whole life goes to his children who disowned their father because of a nasty seperation from their mother. They are a wealthy family, not Malcolm, and so he felt they had enough and the 3 people he wanted to take care of are now going to be hurt. The wealthy only want to get wealthier and so I know I am going to have to leave my home. Please try to hold on. I know how hard it is but if you ever did anything to yourself you will not be with your husband. I do believe our death needs to be from Gods hands not our. I am so so sorry. It is a pain that can't be easily removed you just learn to live with it. It will never go away, it'll just get easier to live with it.