Who I Am
I'm in my 2nd marriage. The first time, I got pregnant and got married at the age of 16. My 17th birthday was in April and Jon was born on May 28. I also had a 2nd son, David with my 1st husband. My Ex and I grew apart and divorced. One month after my divorce was final, I married my 2nd husband.(I was very Co-Dependent and thought I couldn't survive without a man in my life). We will be having our 30 anniversary in Nov.
We have 3 children together. Noah, who died when he was 7wks old, Jason, and our daughter Elizabeth. Jon died on June 29,2009. I am very close with my kids and my granddaughter Maddy who is now 2 1/2. I work full time plus overtime and have a very stressful job. I strove to learn many different skills at my job of 14yrs. so I have a lot of tasks given to me. I am also Children's Minister at our church, which should be a full time job in itself. I have been a born-again Christian for 32 yrs. and in Children's Ministry for that long. I grew up spiritually teaching Sunday School. I belong to a Foursquare Church and am so very thankful that I have the Lord in my life to help me through my losses and to be there in my good times as well. I honestly don't know how I would have ever been able to make through the deaths of both of my sons without Him. I wrote all this so that those who may read it because they too have lost a child will maybe gain some hope that even though the pain never goes away, and there is always a hole in your heart that only that particular child could fill, you can move forward in life, eventually, and there are joys there just like there were with your son or daughter. I will grieve the loss of my sons until I die and am reunited with them but I will also rejoice in the love I share with my children who are still with me and strive to teach other's children how to trust Jesus in every situation. I'm sure I will have times when I will revisit this page to read my own words to remind myself of what I now type but there is hope and I will listen to or share with anyone who would want to share their pain with a friend. Blessings. Kathy
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Thank you so much for your prayers for me. Please don't stop~ as I need all the prayer I can get.
Big hugs, and lotsa love to you and your family.
Thank you for sharing your story so openly. I didn't realize how affected I was by the scars of my childhood until recently. and the Your tribute to Jon is just beautiful.
Robi's mom, with such pride and sadness <3
Thanks for the friend request and your warm welcome to the group. I was so touched to read of your losses, I am truly sorry. I was also extremely touched and encouraged by your faith and courage. May God Bless you. What a painful Journey this is.
Thank you for your beautiful words,I'm just getting used to this website so I'm not great at the emails yet either but if you email me first at firstname.lastname@example.org I'll add you to my friends list.I just know that soon I have to go to my papa's house where all her stuff is and I'm not sure if I'm ready to put it away but he needs the room so I have to do something with her stuff,I'm not giving any of it away yet except the formula because it will go bad and I'm looking online for places that do tubal reversals for a reasonable price that me and my husband can afford because Jaysa is our only daughter together and though she will always be we would still like to have at least one more together,I guess we will have to do alot of saving and alot of praying.But you are right my life is forever changed and she changed me for the better and if I let that go away then it's like her lil life meant nothing so in her name I will do better for my self and others.I hope soon I can pay my college debt off and become a counselor and this all came to me because of Jaysa so I know that's why God blessed me with her even if it was for a short time to me I will see her soon in a blink of her eye and I hope I make her proud and I can't wait til I can tell stories to her next brother or sister about what an amazing sister they have in Heaven.So Please pray for me and my husband so we can save and have that surgery within a year or two.Thank you Jenn&Jeremy Branscum
Hello Kathy. It has been over a year since I joined this group. Even though I read other people stories daily, I just figured out how to get back to my page.
Kathy thank you so very much for your words of encouragement. You are Blessed by the Best and I thank God for you. I am sadden to read of your losses,yet encouraged how you handle it.
After losing Johnny in Sept.09 my husband died in his sleep from natural causes (Heart-Attack) April 27,2010. He was 63 years old. We were married for 11 years. He was my second husband step father to my children.
I thank Him for sharing Johnny with me for 23years 11months and 10days. For that I am grateful. I know Johnny and Woodrow is alright. Even though I miss them like crazy I know I am alright too. I have the support of my wonderful family. I have not figured out how to answer the question..How many children do you have? I pay attention to words. I have TWO.....Then I start thinking should I say I HAD Three? ----I still answer 3.
May God Continue to Bless You.
Thanks for listening.
P.S. I know the Battle is far from over. I also know the Battle is not mind it's the Lord.
Kathy, thank you so much. It's people like you that keep me strong. The words of encouragement and comfort are always welcomed and needed. Again, thank you.
Thank you Kathy for the Christmas blessing
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