Laura, i sent you a long message, but something went wrong i never had this happen to me on this site...anyway, thank you for responding...i read your story to celtic women, and it really touched my heart.. i love their music. i am angry most of the time, and just want the pain to stop, but that is what a broken heart feels like, and we sure have broken, shattered hearts...i am so sorry for what happened to your precious son, and for you to have to endure knowing that the boy that caused it shows no remorse then you have good reason to be angry, enraged is more like it...are you seeing a counselor? i think i need to because i have not asked the Lord for help, i guess i am angry with hi too, maybe that will come in time, i hear he is patient..laura, like you i have begun to not care about anything like i used to it's like what's the point of it...i am not the same person i used to be which was kind, forgiving, more of a giving person, but now i have become kinda mean, and reclusive..i just want my Robby back, and i know that our son's are saving a place for us next to them, i can't wait. again, thank you for your caring words, and i hope we can continue to talk to each other. my e-mail is tam0615@gmail.com if you want to talk. take care, and thanks for being a friend...

Dear Laura,
I am so deeply saddened for all that you have lost and everything that you have and are going through. Please tell me more about your son and your life; I care. Thank you for your kindness. It helps to write to other people that have experienced the same or similar circumstances becuase other people just simply do not have any idea of the heart wrenching pain that we have experienced. I ahve learned that whatever I am feeling is okay. Thank you with all my heart for giving your support so unselfishly when you yourself have had to cope with such loss yourself.

Hi Laura,
Thanks for leaving this comment. I truly appreciate your loss and I grieve for you too. Every time I visit the cemetery I go see the kids that have passed into His love and there are so many of them! Sometimes I think that the section where Michael is buried is the youngster section. Our beloved neighbor is there, too.
I well know that I may not want to know the whole truth but in another fashion I do. I can handle it. After seeing my child buried nothing can be worse than that.
I pray for your healing and I will post a poem if I can get it there that a friend sent to me just after Christmas. Hugs to you,
Ann

Laura I cannot type. I get to going too fast and my older fingers won't keep up. I do thank you so much for your support and encouragement. It is what keeps me going.
I have not been able to speak with anyone but the detective and his direct boss. The police chief wil not answer my attorney's or my calls. Next, we are trying to set up a meeting with the city attorney. After that, if he cannot answer my questions I plan to go to the media because I do not believe that a thorough investigation was done. The detective even lied to me in that meeting and said he never told me my son's case was closed, but he did and I have witnesses. They are trying to cover up something and I will one day find out what. I am going to try to attach a photo of my baby.....we will see if thet happens.
Thanks for your support! Hugs to you too!
Ann

Laura,What a beautiful child! I am so sorry you have lost your baby. I lost my beautiful 21 year old son on Nov. 29,2009. He was found dead of a gunshot wound to the head with very suspicious circumstances. Police say suicide, yet how is that possible when so many things do not add up? I won't go in to detail but I feel so badly for you and only know that time will not cure us or help us feel any less lost without our kids. Ny prayers are with you,
Ann

laura, thank you for information .i will send you literature tomorrow. ii am very glad i had an opportunity to meet and share with you.you can call me any time of the day or night if you ever need to talk. love and blessing.ruby ellard.... ruby

Dearest Laura;
Hello it has been a long time that i have been on the site. But, i want to tell you that i understand and that i am praying for us, i have been in a depression for two weeks now and i know about the sleepless nights and the heart that is empty and void and how when any one comes over i don't want them to touch any of Jared's things i won't even let them go in his room so i understand that and i understand how when you even hear a story that is so close to yours that it's like you are being broken and hurt again. I understand how you are trying to function when all that you want is to hold your baby and not have to live without him. So you have had a week like mine and many others here who are struggling just to breath. I walk here in my house and hold my son's pictures close and cry i have been crying for some time now, and i know how when people hear that you are the woman everyone is talking about that people treat you like you have the plague, i am going through that with some very close friends and people that have known my son. I can't even go to the store without someone saying Hi Jared's mom and then going home without him being there. I have 4 brothers no husband and they are not able to process how we might be feeling they are all trying to be strong when all i want is for them to cry with me, it's a sometimes very lonely place as it is sometimes for all of us, but this is not about all of us it's about you and i know that and i know that some of the questions are why and how are you going to get through one more day without you son's smile without the void being filled, because there is a void there. The only thing i can say is that it's not meant for us to push away how we feel nor to make excuses about how others feel about the lose of you son and the void it has left in your life as well as others some known and some not known, what i can say is that we are in this place of the worst kind and as we go along no matter how long it's going to take or no matter how hard it is going to get, that our son's are looking for us to smile and love life again, to continue to struggle to cry to yell out to run out of a room when it's too painful to be there, and that there will come a time when they will say mom it's time to smile and to laugh, we don't know when that time will come that they will say this to us and we think that we will never hear it from them but we will. It won't tomorrow and it won't be next week and it may not be a year from now but they will say "mom live and don't die, mom smile, and when that happen we will come out better and stronger because it will be them giving us what they know we need and that is life and permission to move forward which will be another Heart Song from God to us. I know this sounds stupid and i know you may say to yourself she does'nt know what she's talking about! but know this i am you and you are me the only difference is that i don't have a husband, but i had a son that was beloved not just by me but by a vast community and who is now gone, who left a hole so big that there is nothing that can fill it, at least not today.From my heart to yours.
Love daphne

I have done this since the beginning, helping her when she called. I stayed w/girls for over 2 months while she was working. (Taking leave from my job to do so because it was more important to me to help.) I love my daughter-in-law very much.