Lindsey I feel that pain of just not wanting to be here and just be gone I said it alot too but I thought both Jaysa and your beautiful daughter Sophia wouldnt want us to come to them like that we are here to make sure no one forgets them because if we were gone who would people ask about our beautiful little girls because no one knows them better than we do right?! We share a close date in common my daughter went to God on her 4 month b-day which was May 15th 2011 and your daughter went to God May 10th so our May's are always going to have bad memories around them lets just hope we can help each other through it and picture our little girls playing in the green grasses of Heaven without a care in the world together and waiting for us and within a blink of an eye to them we will be there to hold their hands and kiss their beautiful faces and then we will all walk with God!I think we were drawen to each other by God for a reason maybe with a little help form Jaysa and Sophia too.I can see them laughing and having fun and that's what I'm going to try and dream of tonight. God Bless Lindsey

lindsey i feel your anger mine is towards myself because I had just started letting her sleep in her craddle before my older kids came from MI and I kill myself over and over with thoughts of what if i had just let her sleep with me that night like all the other nights before please continue to write me I think we can really help each other since our babies were so close in age and with what happened to them.Just tonight sleep if you can knowing they are both in God's arms and we both can deal with tom together.Sometimes someone saying they will pray for you is very nice but it doesnt seem like enough for you huh?!That's how I feel sometimes I need someone who is going through the same thing and your words help alot your right i should yell and be mad and sometimes scream cuz my baby is gone before I am and that's not the order it's supposed to be in.write me back when you are ready and try not to be to mad at your grandma because believe me she's mad at herself for the both of you right now i promise.

God Bless you Lindsay.   Trust in the Lord and it will ease your pain and I will be praying for that as well.  Love to you and take care.

Shannon

Lindsay, my heart cries for your loss in both you beautiful baby and trust in your mother. May you eventually find peace in your life after this tragic loss. I lost my son at 27 AND I know I would have grieved as much if not more if he'd passed at your precious baby's age. I can look at my son's grown pictures but have a hard time looking at baby and early childhood pictures. They are so precious and depend so much on you. I really hope that some day you find some sort of peace with this.

Lindsay, my heart cries for your loss in both you beautiful baby and trust in your mother. May you eventually find peace in your life after this tragic loss. I lost my son at 27 AND I know I would have grieved as much if not more if he'd passed at your precious baby's age. I can look at my son's grown pictures but have a hard time looking at baby and early childhood pictures. They are so precious and depend so much on you. I really hope that some day you find some sort of peace with this.

Hi Lindsay thanks for writing I am sorry for our losses.. and even that sounds bad. It is pretty devestating. to say the least. hope you are doing ok. I am really not it seems to have gotten worse and i expect it to stay bad forever what would make it better. It is sadder than imaginable and haunts me in my sleep and daily. I feel like i am going to loose my mind. wish i was more positive. but I am really just sad... and my mind is not relieved.  I know we are all on the same thought pattern some take it better than others. it is not fair. or right and i can't think of anything more terrible. carrie L