Thank you for the kind words on my blog, My children are my life. My world will never be the same without my two precious sons but in their honor and memory I will hold my head up and smile, for I have 6 other children that I am just as proud of and love just as much and they need me. It breaks my heart that I cannot kiss their pain away, I can just hold them and cry with them and together we will move forward. God bless and hugs your way!!!!
Hi Lisa thanks for writing. We miss our beautiful sons. for sure. I can't stop thinking about that tragic day and what i could ahve done to prevent it. i am sure you do the same thing. i am having a hard time thinking about anything else. i have other children like you. they seem to be doing ok ... My life is at a standstill due to marriage problems which I feel participated in me not knowing or denying what was going on with him. we make some stupid mistakes in life and this is the bigget for me. He will be remembered and greatly missed until we are done here. love to you carrie L
yes , i also believe we are sentenced to hell. when we have just one child, that child becomes our everything. dustys father was never there for him, never wanted to be and was busy running around on me. (long story shortened) so, dusty and i were alone together alot. i appreciate you responding as we are on the same time frame with our losses.
i will tell you more about my son soon, i just go day to day, with hardly any support, no friends.. but, since i have connected to a great church, i cant say everything is better, but i know that God is the only person i can trust and the more i pray, the better. love, valerie
At 12:41pm on February 10, 2011, valerie moore said…
dear lisa, it is also 17 months that i lost my precious only child, dusty. i know that i AM INSANE. i believe, that i will be insane for the most part for the rest of my life. when we lose our children, its a hell sentence for us forever. your son was very handsome, i am so sorry for your loss. i know exactly how you feel as a mom that lost her only child. 17 months ago.
Hi Lisa I was reading how you had gotten a chance to get horses. I have them also though I am not near them now. going through a divorce. which makes it much harder. I have regrets about my horses how if I had spent that money on trips my memories would be much fuller. Morgan loved to travel to california... as where his ashes will be when they are spread. I overlooked a lot of things.. your photos of chad are beautiful. your love for him is immense... I surely love my son and wish i had one more day one more hour one minute would work. hope your christmas is good and your new years as we all have this tearfilled journey ahead of us.. All our nice young men they would have had a blast together wouldn't they?? yes... carrie L
Sorry that you are feeling down....sure know when that hits....not a thing we can do about it but work through it. And I too thought because my family were good people, did good things for people, etc etc that we were exempt from any more tragedies.....like you said, how foolish.
Wish I could give you a real hug but not possible.....take care and in 3 weeks all this holiday business is over and we can go back to somewhat of normal... Hugs to you today.....sorry you are sad.
Sorry that you are feeling down....sure know when that hits....not a thing we can do about it but work through it. And I too thought because my family were good people, did good things for people, etc etc that we were exempt from any more tragedies.....like you said, how foolish.
Wish I could give you a real hug but not possible.....take care and in 3 weeks all this holiday business is over and we can go back to somewhat of normal... Hugs to you today.....sorry you are sad.
Hello Lisa.....haven't seen you on here much lately.....everything ok as it can be? We all know this month is the hardest of the holidays. Just know I have been thinking of you and hugs coming to you this month as always....
Thank you for the messages Lisa. I too am very sorry for the loss of your son Chad. Quite a handsome young man. Beautiful kids all of them.
Unfortunately much of that day remains a mystery with varying accounts of what actually happened. Cait adored horses and had been riding for 10 years. The horse she rode the day she died was a very large horse and from what I am told she was petrified of him. He was 17 1/2 hands, new to farm and not quite broken. The girls she rode with on her drill team, all wonder why she was told to ride him. Her usual horse was there and available. Oh how I wish I had not stopped to answer the phone in my office that day and had been there. No 1 story on how she came off. But all agree the fall was not remarkably hard. Her head was the last thing to hit the ground and it was without much force. The ring was dragged, clear of any debris and he did not kick her. My baby died of multiple basal skull fractures. She never knew what hit her. There was a mom who performed CPR and she was taken to a local hospital then airlifted to a Trauma center. They gave me the option of surgery but when I pressed the surgeon if she would do it if it was her child, she told me no because Cait would have no quality of life if she actually made it through the surgery. To keep her on life support would have been purely selfish. So we let her go. It was another 12 hours or so before they would declare her gone and turn off life support. This also gave time for them to round up the organ donation team. She was wearing a helmet and that is being investigated. It split up the back and appears may have caused the fractures. But that is a fight for the court system sadly enough. I tried to get the President of the helmet company to pull the helmet and investigate, he would not. So we'll do what we need to do to make him. To really think of it all is a place hard to go. I seem to keep it all at arms length. Any closer chokes me. She was so beautiful.
Thank you for the messages Lisa. I too am very sorry for the loss of your son Chad. Quite a handsome young man. Beautiful kids all of them.
Unfortunately much of that day remains a mystery with varying accounts of what actually happened. Cait adored horses and had been riding for 10 years. The horse she rode the day she died was a very large horse and from what I am told she was petrified of him. He was 17 1/2 hands, new to farm and not quite broken. The girls she rode with on her drill team, all wonder why she was told to ride him. Her usual horse was there and available. Oh how I wish I had not stopped to answer the phone in my office that day and had been there. No 1 story on how she came off. But all agree the fall was not remarkably hard. Her head was the last thing to hit the ground and it was without much force. The ring was dragged, clear of any debris and he did not kick her. My baby died of multiple basal skull fractures. She never knew what hit her. There was a mom who performed CPR and she was taken to a local hospital then airlifted to a Trauma center. They gave me the option of surgery but when I pressed the surgeon if she would do it if it was her child, she told me no because Cait would have no quality of life if she actually made it through the surgery. To keep her on life support would have been purely selfish. So we let her go. It was another 12 hours or so before they would declare her gone and turn off life support. This also gave time for them to round up the organ donation team. She was wearing a helmet and that is being investigated. It split up the back and appears may have caused the fractures. But that is a fight for the court system sadly enough. I tried to get the President of the helmet company to pull the helmet and investigate, he would not. So we'll do what we need to do to make him. To really think of it all is a place hard to go. I seem to keep it all at arms length. Any closer chokes me. She was so beautiful.
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Thank you for the kind words on my blog, My children are my life. My world will never be the same without my two precious sons but in their honor and memory I will hold my head up and smile, for I have 6 other children that I am just as proud of and love just as much and they need me. It breaks my heart that I cannot kiss their pain away, I can just hold them and cry with them and together we will move forward. God bless and hugs your way!!!!
Gina
to my friend lisa,
yes , i also believe we are sentenced to hell. when we have just one child, that child becomes our everything. dustys father was never there for him, never wanted to be and was busy running around on me. (long story shortened) so, dusty and i were alone together alot. i appreciate you responding as we are on the same time frame with our losses.
i will tell you more about my son soon, i just go day to day, with hardly any support, no friends.. but, since i have connected to a great church, i cant say everything is better, but i know that God is the only person i can trust and the more i pray, the better. love, valerie
dear lisa, it is also 17 months that i lost my precious only child, dusty. i know that i AM INSANE. i believe, that i will be insane for the most part for the rest of my life. when we lose our children, its a hell sentence for us forever. your son was very handsome, i am so sorry for your loss. i know exactly how you feel as a mom that lost her only child. 17 months ago.
prayers and hugs, valerie
Sorry that you are feeling down....sure know when that hits....not a thing we can do about it but work through it. And I too thought because my family were good people, did good things for people, etc etc that we were exempt from any more tragedies.....like you said, how foolish.
Wish I could give you a real hug but not possible.....take care and in 3 weeks all this holiday business is over and we can go back to somewhat of normal... Hugs to you today.....sorry you are sad.
Sorry that you are feeling down....sure know when that hits....not a thing we can do about it but work through it. And I too thought because my family were good people, did good things for people, etc etc that we were exempt from any more tragedies.....like you said, how foolish.
Wish I could give you a real hug but not possible.....take care and in 3 weeks all this holiday business is over and we can go back to somewhat of normal... Hugs to you today.....sorry you are sad.
Hello Lisa.....haven't seen you on here much lately.....everything ok as it can be? We all know this month is the hardest of the holidays. Just know I have been thinking of you and hugs coming to you this month as always....
Unfortunately much of that day remains a mystery with varying accounts of what actually happened. Cait adored horses and had been riding for 10 years. The horse she rode the day she died was a very large horse and from what I am told she was petrified of him. He was 17 1/2 hands, new to farm and not quite broken. The girls she rode with on her drill team, all wonder why she was told to ride him. Her usual horse was there and available. Oh how I wish I had not stopped to answer the phone in my office that day and had been there. No 1 story on how she came off. But all agree the fall was not remarkably hard. Her head was the last thing to hit the ground and it was without much force. The ring was dragged, clear of any debris and he did not kick her. My baby died of multiple basal skull fractures. She never knew what hit her. There was a mom who performed CPR and she was taken to a local hospital then airlifted to a Trauma center. They gave me the option of surgery but when I pressed the surgeon if she would do it if it was her child, she told me no because Cait would have no quality of life if she actually made it through the surgery. To keep her on life support would have been purely selfish. So we let her go. It was another 12 hours or so before they would declare her gone and turn off life support. This also gave time for them to round up the organ donation team. She was wearing a helmet and that is being investigated. It split up the back and appears may have caused the fractures. But that is a fight for the court system sadly enough. I tried to get the President of the helmet company to pull the helmet and investigate, he would not. So we'll do what we need to do to make him. To really think of it all is a place hard to go. I seem to keep it all at arms length. Any closer chokes me. She was so beautiful.
Unfortunately much of that day remains a mystery with varying accounts of what actually happened. Cait adored horses and had been riding for 10 years. The horse she rode the day she died was a very large horse and from what I am told she was petrified of him. He was 17 1/2 hands, new to farm and not quite broken. The girls she rode with on her drill team, all wonder why she was told to ride him. Her usual horse was there and available. Oh how I wish I had not stopped to answer the phone in my office that day and had been there. No 1 story on how she came off. But all agree the fall was not remarkably hard. Her head was the last thing to hit the ground and it was without much force. The ring was dragged, clear of any debris and he did not kick her. My baby died of multiple basal skull fractures. She never knew what hit her. There was a mom who performed CPR and she was taken to a local hospital then airlifted to a Trauma center. They gave me the option of surgery but when I pressed the surgeon if she would do it if it was her child, she told me no because Cait would have no quality of life if she actually made it through the surgery. To keep her on life support would have been purely selfish. So we let her go. It was another 12 hours or so before they would declare her gone and turn off life support. This also gave time for them to round up the organ donation team. She was wearing a helmet and that is being investigated. It split up the back and appears may have caused the fractures. But that is a fight for the court system sadly enough. I tried to get the President of the helmet company to pull the helmet and investigate, he would not. So we'll do what we need to do to make him. To really think of it all is a place hard to go. I seem to keep it all at arms length. Any closer chokes me. She was so beautiful.
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