Mary I know how you are feeling. My mom passed away May 7th of 2009 and my world feels like it ended. She was my best friend, mentor my everything. Life feels so empty without her. I continually try to pick up the phone to call her and I feel so lost. She guided me through every step of life and was my guardian angel and I miss her. If I could just turn back the hands of time for one more day with her I could be whole again. I have to try and pretend life is ok because I have a two year old and need to keep her happy but the sadness is overwhelming. Mary you are in my prayers, please know you are not alone God is with you.
Mary, I feel your pain. My Dad died in July 2007. He was in a Nursing home for 20 months with Alzheimer's disease. My Mom died on January 21, 2010 of a stroke. I'm 52 years old and have 2 older Brothers. I'm married 31 years and have one daughter who is 21. Her and Mom shared a birthday on April 28. Even though I have siblings, it's not any easier. I cry almost every day still and feel deep pain. I don't share this with people I work with because I'm in the medical field and have to force myself to pretend to be cheerful. We have to learn to live a different way now. They ARE in a better place-no more sickness and suffering. We need to give our grief time to lessen. Let's remember the wisdom they taught us and the good memories. God Bless You.
Mary, I am also an only child. I just buried my father on Friday and lost my mother in 2008. They had been married almost 60 years and were best friends to each other and to me. Without family close by, days can be extremely dark and depressing. However, the one bright spot in all this darkness is that I have wonderful friends who have supported me and continue to help me through the empty days. God bless you and know that your parents are always with you, in spirit and in the person you are.