I thought I was handling the passing of my dad pretty well, however I am not. I was just fooling myself to think so. My dad passed away on March 1, 2007, and it feels like he passed away today. I cannot pull myself together and just faking my way through my days and my life. I just cannot get a grip that my dad is gone, gone for good. My mother and I do not have a good relationship but we never really did. It was my dad that kept the family somewhat sane not my mother. I'm new to this kind of support as I'm usually a private person and do not like to burden anyone with my sad tales of death. I hope I get a chance to communicate with decent people to share good and bad times about the people we lost. I have been told it will get better but I respond when?