I just want you to know I am thinking of you and how you must be feeling this first Christmas without your beloved husband. So many people say "I know how you feel" when they really have no idea, do they? They all mean well. I wanted to be alone, alone, alone. People kept trying to surround me and I couldn't handle it. Five years later I still prefer to spend the holidays alone. We all grieve in our own way. Just wanted you to know your story has touched me. If I can help in any way I will......God bless.