Hi Roberta, Well since I last wrote, I have literalty been on a roller coaster!!!! My emotions are running wild. Some times I feel im out of control - but Im grateful that thur it all, my feet still land on the ground!! I have alot of hurt & pain Roberta & im not good at knowing what to do with it, so lately all i've been doing is crying!! well that feels good to do, but i still feel heavily burdened.... My 2nd oldest sister ( Audrey ) passed Nov 25th, 03...... My oldest sister ( Florence ) passed Oct 28th, 09 & My Brother ( Jess ) passed Dec 24th, 09. Very HeartWrenching!!! Forgot to mention, My Dad ( Tony ) passed Aug 6th, 71.... If I let myself think to much, I will lose it, All I want is to find some kind of Peace!!! I know, Ive heard it many times, they are in a better place & not suffering anymore, but that does not bring me the peace im looking for.... I Miss them all so much, These last two months have been extremly hard, im so heartbroken Roberta. There is so much more to share but i dont want to overwhelm anyone. I find it kind of boggling that thur all this i am able to get up each day and work, act normal and make it thur the day. Its when 5 o'clock comes that I become this other person who's broken & crying!!! Thank you for hearing me out, this sure feels good and normal!!! :) That smile was real.........